Archive for February, 2017

No matter wherever you are now, I hope you’re doing fine. I hope you’re doing just fine now. May God will always bless and protect you. May God will help to take a good care of you for me. From now on, I’ll always pray for you. I’ll always pray for your health and may the only the best come into your life. I hope we will meet soon. I hope when we meet each other, both of us are ready for our last relationship. I promise that I’ll love you with all of me and in the best in way I know. I promise to give my best and do my best to make the relationship work out. I promise that I’ll always be there for you and be loyal to you. I promise that I won’t fall for someone else once I said those three sacred words “I love you”. I promise that you’ll always be my first priority. I’m not perfect, but I can promise you’ll have the best of me, like no one ever did. I’m not a 5 stars hotel chef, but I promise I’ll cook for you anything you want, I hope you’re not a picky person. I’ll be anything you want me to be; a partner in crime, a loving wife, a sporting best friend, a clingy girlfriend, a lifetime companion, a sexy-cute lover, a protective-jealous girlfriend or a warm walking bolster, just choose.  I promise you, everytime you’re having a rough day or a tough time, I’ll be there to ease you stress or just give you hug or we can stay in silence for hours if you don’t feel want to talk. I’m not a queen control, I’ll trust you and let you do whatever you want, I just hope you won’t cheated on me or betrayed my trust. I’m a strong and independent lady, but with you I’ll be clingy and ask you to do things for me, I hope you don’t mind. I really can’t wait to meet you, my dear future forever love. I’ve so many to tell you, I hope you’re a good listener. I hope you can match my craziness. Most of all I hope you can bear my bipolar attitude. I’m full of flaws but I hope you still can see the beauty between those flaws in me. Until we meet, please take a good care of yourself my dear love. My prayers will always be with you. I might not know you name yet, but I’ll start to call you My Dear Love. See you soon, my dear love.

I’m sorry…this is for you.

Posted: February 25, 2017 in Uncategorized

I’m sorry. I wish we didn’t have to end this way. I’m sorry for the harsh words and the way I treat you when I’m mad. I’m sorry for being selfish and always make decisions without asking your opinion. Everytime I bought something for you, I really want to give it as a gift to you, but if you don’t like it, I’m so sorry. If I did something you don’t like along we’re together, I’m really sorry. I’m just trying to be the best girlfriend or lover in the way I know to you, but I guess I fail. When I choose to stay, never cross my mind I want to feel good only, but if you feel that way I’m really sorry. I’m really sincere to be there for you and to help you. I’m really sincere for everything I did for you. If you ever feel I’m taking you for granted, I’m really sorry yea because I never take you for granted, not even once. Never cross my mind I want something in return. Many times I demand for your time only, that’s all. I admit I’m sad when you can’t make time for me, but still I try to understand. I’m sorry for pressuring and forcing you. I’m sorry for bring sadness to your life now. I won’t bother you anymore. I won’t come to see you anymore. I won’t text you anymore. I wish I can return to you almost two years we’re together. I left many of the things you bought for me at your place. It’s not that I don’t want it, it just I don’t dare to keep it because I know myself, when I see things that will remind me of you, I’ll miss you so much and it’s not a good thing. I’m afraid if I miss you so much, I’ll come bother you again and I don’t want that to happen. Just help me to keep it all for now. Maybe one day when we’re both settle down and have no more hard feelings to each other, I’ll come to get my things from you. I really wish one day we can be friends again because you’re such a good person and it’s me that bring the bad side of you. I hope you will live well and be happy. Don’t miss me or think about me, I don’t want you to get sad. Please pray for me to be strong yea. I’m used to live with you and it will be hard to live without you.