Archive for June, 2017


Posted: June 29, 2017 in Uncategorized

You cheated on me, you lied to me, you being dishonest to me, you IGNORE me, you’re being so rude to me. I really never thought that you’ll stop loving me when you make me believe that you’ll never stop loving me and there will be no anyone else, but me.

Tell me the wrong things I’ve ever said or done to you. If got, list them out. Tell me, tell it to my face. If none, then tell me the reasons why you treated me in such an awful way. Tell me the reasons that make me deserve the way you treated me.

I’m praying hard everyday that I can forgive you, forgive myself and finally move on from you. I never hold grudge towards anyone in my whole life, but this time I did. Maybe because this time it hurts so much, it’s killing me slowly, I lost myself, I lost my world / my everything and worse I can’t be truly happy no matter what I do now.

Sometimes it hurts so damn much when just a few seconds of flashback about you can bring me into tears and worse I can’t stop the tears from falling. The tears suddenly appear on its own. Everyday I’m fighting with my own mind, to stop myself from thinking about you. Sometimes I feel like I’m so crazy.

One day…

Posted: June 7, 2017 in Life

One day you will miss me for everything. Many times you will try to find me in every person you meet, but I couldn’t be found. One day you will miss my care and my love; the ones that I keep telling you again and again that you deserve it. One day when you are sick, you will remember the times I’m always there to take care of you and how I handle your tantrum. One day you will miss my cooking. I’m not a 5 star chef, but I know many times my cooking makes you smile widely and your tummy happy. One day you will miss seeing me standing in the kitchen and cooking for you, while waiting for you back from work. One day when you get so tired and don’t have the energy to wake up, you will remember the times I always come to you and do things for you. One day when you’re sick or having sore throat, you will remember the times I always bring water to you. One day you will remember the times I dry your hair and do your nails. One day when you’ve muscle sore from working too much, you will remember the times I massage you to make you feel better. One day you will miss my snoring. One day you will longing for my hug. One day you will miss my warmth when you feel cold. One day you will miss having ride with me and Mr.Black. One day you will remember the times we go shopping together. One day you will miss the times I always be there for you and keep coming back to you. I hope you will remember and miss only the good thing about me and us.

You will never meet someone like me ever again. You will never find or see me in any person you meet in your whole life. But I can promise you, that you will meet someone better than me, someone that will love you better and treat you better, someone that can understand you better. I really don’t want you to meet someone like me ever again; not in this life or next life. 

One day I’ll be standing on the aisle in someone’s hand and I don’t want you to miss the happiest time of my life, because if you didn’t give up on me, I will never be able to find and meet my forever love, the one that will love me just the way I am.